DEJA VU

Every time I sit at this one computer in the library I have deja vu. Its crazy! 

I believe that deja vu is when you are vaguely experiencing another path your life could have followed if you or others around you chose to make other decisions. When alternate universes get confused for just a moment in the space-time continuum. Just a glimpse of what could be. It sounds weird, I know, but think about it and it makes perfect sense.

So when I feel it every time I sit at this computer it weirds me out! Just the other day I was at this computer  Googling landscapers for this house project I'm working on with my dad and I had a deja vu experience that Justin was leaning over me trying to help and telling me what to do and we got in a disagreement. Then today, just now actually, I read Suzy's blog and she said she wasn't supposed to swim and I had a deja vu experience that she told me she wasn't allowed to swim because of a medication she was on. Then she did go swimming and she drowned. I know those sound like really descriptive for a deja vu, but it only lasts an instant and all the feelings and the thoughts and the situation feels totally real for just one split second... 

Its seriously the weirdest thing.

Britter OUT.

This blog entry turned out differently than I thought it would....

View picture of date night posted in the entry below...

I am studying for finals this week... The retarded thing is, I am so bad at studying. I definitely have some self control issues.

I feel guilty when I don't study, but when I do study I feel guilty too because I get distracted every 5 minutes (right now I'm typing with my biology book under the keyboard). 

Today Sheri Dew came and spoke to our district's Relief Society. She said some incredible things about our missions in life that God has planned for us. I was thinking about this exact thing as I was sitting there waiting for it to start. 

Me and my friend Jenna always talk about how many dreams we have that people say we can't accomplish and they say they aren't important because they will set us back in our schooling and stuff. I always used to roll my eyes at them. I still do actually... haha. But I do see now that God has a mission for me. I have a specific purpose that I was sent here to earth to achieve that no other can accomplish. I may have things I want to do like; a foreign exchange trip to Germany next spring, going back to Africa with Mothers Without Borders, working in California for awhile, nannying back East, getting my master's degree in nursing then going on to get certified in alternative holistic nursing, etc etc etc.... But those may or may not be what my Heavenly Father has planned for me. When I pray to know if these things are right he may give me an answer. Or the answer may be I can do whatever I want to do, but it may hinder my mission or change my blessings. Every choice we make has consequences good or bad, even if it may not be a bad decision. Satan can use anything against us even if its not negative (although more often than not, it is).

She said it much better than I can, but I guess the point is... If we don't align our will with God's then we will never accomplish all we were sent here to accomplish or fulfill our entire potential. 

Mosiah 15:2-5 says... 

 2 And because he dwelleth in flesh he shall be called the Son of God, and having subjected the flesh to the will of the Father, being the Father and the Son—

  3 The Father, because he was conceived by the power of God; and the Son, because of the flesh; thus becoming the Father and Son—

  4 And they are one God, yea, the very Eternal Father of heaven and of earth.

  5 And thus the flesh becoming subject to the Spirit, or the Son to the Father, being one God, suffereth temptation, and yieldeth not to the temptation, but suffereth himself to be mocked, and scourged, and cast out, and disowned by his people. 

That is how the Savior became one with God and we must as well.

Britter OUT.

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Why do people write blogs?? Its like we think people care about our lives. How naive.

Britter OUT.

DATE NIGHT SISTAS!!!

Last night=epic sauce.

Out of your comfort zone was the unspoken theme of the evening. Half the dates were blind and the activity was swing dancing & outdoor movie going. Who would've thought it could go so well?? Everyone had a great time and came home twitterpated.

Especially me *guilty*

But when a completely gorgeous man turns out to be a better date than expected and treats you like gold, how would you feel?? Even if nothing comes of it, it was definitely a night to be remembered.

Oh why oh why does the end of the semester have to be so close?

Photos to be posted later.

This is a pic from swing dancing. Jared wanted to learn every single move there was! This one was most difficult. But we did learn the handstand!

Britter OUT.

CHANGE?

Change? Where?

I don't see it.... Oh its everywhere? No wonder I couldn't see it... I'm spinning around in circles right in the middle of it! 

Hate it... Well hate is a strong word. Its more like a mutual seek and destroy relationship. 

Does it make me insecure? Yes

Does it knock me off my feet? Yes

Can I control it? No

Is it in the frightening abyss of the unknown? Yes

Does it make me want to go out and save the world? Rarely

Does it make me a better person? Grrr... I'll never admit it.

Do other people cause it? Sometimes

When I wish for it at certain moments does it empathize? No

The only thing that ever stays the same is.... Well nothing.

Including me.

I'm just trying to keep up.

Britter OUT.

FREAK OUT

One of my favorite songs is "Freak Out" by Avril Lavigne. Its one of a kind. One of those songs that just really gets your anger out.... Well in my opinion anyway.

*CHORUS*

Just freak out, let it go
I'm gonna live my life
I can't ever run and hide
I won't compromise
Cause I'll never know
I'm gonna close my eyes
I can't watch the time go by
I won't keep it inside
Freak out, let it go
Just freak out, let it go

There are certain times in life where the planets align. All of the sudden you and your peers are plunged into darkness and misery at a level never before seen. It happens to everyone all at once. Leaving no support from anyone. Which is what (I'm 99% positive) caused girl nights. Girls night in all its glory; ice cream, cheesy nachos, sweats, tissues, sad/boy hater movies, and dancing.

These nights are vital to human girl survival. Not because boys don't have problems, just because well, they're not human. Okay they can show human characteristics at times, but it won't last long. They are only the source of the problem 75% of the time, but I think that makes it deserving to be mentioned at least.

So last night I freaked out. So what! Its cool. Its what keeps me sane. Freak out in the presence of only those you can deeply trust so that everyone else continues with the illusion that you are totally and completely normal.

:]

Britter OUT.

HUZZAH

This weekend has been the best ever!!

Besides me almost ruining it with my pride. Sometimes I just get kinda cranky... Okay who doesn't! Its just ya know.

Anyway so last night I got to go to a concert which I haven't done in I don't know how long!! It was Efficiency, The Trademark, We Shot the Moon, J. Ride, and Air Raid Anthem. If you haven't heard them, check them out! But there's nothing like a live show. I had such a blast. Just the feeling and the mood and everything makes me so happy! It was a good end to a stressful day of trying to figure out where to live next fall. And even though I was up till 2am so I'm exhausted, and my body totally hurts... I have a signed t-shirt and cd, and got to have tons of fun and meet fun new people.

Today my friends and I went kite flying!! I was the best kite flyer... And Cedar City has perfect wind for it! We got pizza for a little picnic and one of the pizza boxes totally blew away with all of the pizaa flying out all over the park. It was so funny. Then when we were tired of flying kites we sat in the sun and sang girls camp songs :]

Well... this was a somewhat boring blog. And now I have to go perform in a percussion concert even though I'm exhausted!

Britter OUT.